I used to think it was like a super power I had to find these douchebags who don’t have enough respect to pick up the phone and have a proper break up, but I’m really starting to think I’m not special, that all men in their 30’s are just assholes. Seriously. After leaving me hanging for hours, I then get the Facebook message, I just don’t think things are going to work between us. Not a phone call, not a conversation, a Facebook message. Seriously? I thought I was dealing with an adult here?
So I replied, with that information would have been nice to have before Friday, and can you please drop my glasses in the mail. That’s it. no fanfare, no Facebook message tears. Because, while I am crying, I will NOT be disrespected like that and then show you that you had the power to hurt me. So a few hours after that…comes this:
Seriously? So while you were telling me not to stop, I was supposed to hear, what, exactly?? You just accused me of forcing myself on you, and of basically being a slut, all in one fell swoop. And you couldn’t talk to me about it, you needed to tell me it wasn’t going to work out before bringing it up in the first place? And all those times I asked you to do things that DIDN’T involve sex…. Like last weekend, when I asked you to come over and I was on the 10th day of the period from hell, I was hurting, and so not feeling sexy, and you decided at the last minute it was too late to come over but you stayed up on the phone with me for 3 more hours…..Or this coming weekend when we were supposed to go bowling with friends, and you definitely couldn’t stay, because my parents will be here (and that’s just weird) But you just blew that too….Or how about when I wanted to go to the movies, but you were conveniently busy until it was too late to do much of anything (except sex)?
All the times I worried, and asked you, if you were just in it for sex…was because sex was the only thing you really responded to. Cute sappy stuff like “The reason your fingers have space between them is so another’s can fill it” went unacknowledged, however a dirty meme got a lightning fast response. And if we’re sleeping in the same bed, then, hell yes, I want that connection, is that really wrong? So, please, tell me why I wasn’t good enough for you? Why I was so low on the respect scale that I warranted a break up message instead of, at the very least, a phone call? How is it that 4 months after we started talking, and two months into dating, that now suddenly we won’t “click”? What is it exactly that makes me so unlovable? Unworthy of respect and good etiquette? Why am I sitting here crying over some guy who couldn’t give me what I deserve? Do I just not deserve it? Are my standards too high? Seriously WHAT IS IT?